175 Blog posts I’ve written!!!!!
I am blown away that I keep on writing. It’s been helping me so much. You’ve been helping me so much. All of you who Follow me, stop on by to read a few posts, comment on my Blog, email me personally (I know I still owe some of you responses) and who support me help me stay positive.
I was told by my Chiropractor last week that I needed to start adding EVEN MORE positive thoughts, elements, stuff, things–whatever it is for me to be positive–at least twice more a week. He told me how some of his patients have done that. As he’s been treating me, some emotions have been coming up like FEAR, anger and just being really frustrated. Some of the emotions have been good too. But in order to cushion the impact of the hard emotions (trying not to say negative because perhaps IT REALLY ISN’T NEGATIVE TO HAVE THESE HARD EMOTIONS), he’s highly suggested I add more “up” things to my life.
So yesterday while I was getting my apartment cleaned (one of the best things I have ever decided to let SOMEONE ELSE DO because there’s no way it would get done any other way), I found myself wandering a mall for awhile before sitting down, eating lunch and hanging out.
Here’s what I found in a store:
HOW AWESOME IS THIS?! I mean it is SOOOOO ME! It’s a hue of purple, it’s a “Keep Calm” saying, it says “Sparkle” and I love sparkly things, and it’s on a plaque thingie that I can put up on my wall to remind me to keep calm and sparkle. It really helps me to remember that it’s all gonna be OK and I can get through anything because if I can deal with having MS and lupus I can deal with a lot of other crap…EVEN IF IT FEELS LIKE I JUST CAN’T TAKE ANYMORE…and believe me it feels like that often.
So this was one of my first attempts at finding more positive things to focus on. Today I had PLENTY to get my nerves all in an uproar and then I saw that in my bedroom sitting on my bookshelf at eye level and it reminded me to BREATHE and remember what’s more important.
MY LIGHT FROM WITHIN IS MORE IMPORTANT.
It’s not this other crapola that keeps getting in my way.
I’M WHAT MATTERS…
So after dealing with some tough stuff, I made sure to go walk on the treadmill in the “new” (I say it in quotes because it’s been in the apartment building now for probably a year but it’s “new” to me) for a bit and then head up to the sun deck, look at the sky and the world around me and remember what really matters. It’s also incredibly humbling to see that I am a little thing compared to the rest of the world. My problems aren’t AS BIG as the world so it helps to put them in perspective.
And then to think I’m well on my way to 200 BLOG POSTS!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for being a part of my life.
I can’t wait to see what else is in store…well maybe I can…but to know I’m not alone helps a lot!
*PLEASE READ: A Very Special and Personal Response From a Friend…
Yesterday I posted a Blog asking all of you how you loosen up and lighten up. You can see the Blog post below.
“Looking for suggestions!
How do you loosen up and lighten up? My visits to the Chiropractor have really shown that I need some major help when it comes to mentally loosening up and lightening up! Enough already. I’ve really worked so hard on myself lately and over the past years to help loosen and lighten up more but I still have a long way to go!
So please! Have at it! Would love to see your comments below about how you loosen up and lighten up! I am still so tightly wound it’s going to take more than purple hair, a Spiritual Path, physical recovery, nature, white puffy clouds, my Cleo Kitty, laughter and quality time with my husband, all the awesome people in my life, all the wonderful support in my life, dancing, walking, stretching, reading positive things, listening to positive music and speeches, affirmations, watching positive shows (what are those?), etc.?
ANY AND ALL IDEAS ARE WELCOME! COME ON. DON’T BE SHY!
Thank you all. Hope you have a great week. I’m acting as if it’s going to be a great week and you know, it helped A LOT and today (Monday) was actually a lot better and much more positive and even NICE at times compared to ANY DAY last week.”
**TODAY I RECEIVED ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIFTS I HAVE EVER RECEIVED IN THE FORM OF A RESPONSE/COMMENT, FROM A BEAUTIFUL FRIEND OF MINE NAMED SHELLEY. THANK YOU SO MUCH SHELLEY. YOU MOVED ME IN WAYS I CAN’T EVEN DESCRIBE. YOU ARE TRULY A VERY SPECIAL WOMAN AND I AM HONORED TO KNOW YOU AND CALL YOU MY FRIEND.
PLEASE READ. I HOPE IT CHANGES YOUR LIFE AS MUCH AS IT HAS MINE. I’VE POSTED IT BELOW:
“Hi Nahleen! Well, I can easily find a lot of reasons to be heavy and dark and not loose and light. I could tell myself, I am a sad sad single all alone overworked mother undergoing cancer treatments and surgeries. So many people would take out the violins just for me!! I could get easily sucked in to the undertow of blackness. And have been even when I was doing all the things I was supposed to do. But since my diagnosis I have become a lot lighter. I will try answer your question to the best of my ability.
I laugh at myself. A lot. I let the light of God get in through the cracks. I see my dark dirty hideous patterns and instead of shaming myself for their humiliating ugliness, I laugh at it. I tell on myself. And I tell my secrets.
When I am sad, I cry and if I can’t I just tell people, “I am really sad but can’t cry.” If I am angry, I just acknowledge it. And I keep a light and loving relationship with myself. I say I love you to everything. Myself, my son, my cat, the trees, the food I eat, even people I don’t want to like. I just say it in my head. I say I love you to my hurt back, my surgery site, the doctors, my medication, my hair, my cells, my car, my crazy head, my perception of the world that is most times off. I just keep saying I love you.
And telling on myself.
I love you Nahleen. Thanks for your blog and giving me the opportunity to connect with you. You are beautiful.
THANK YOU AGAIN SHELLEY. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.
I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH. THANK YOU FOR BEING IN MY LIFE…