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Moments of Peace Part 7

Happy 3 Day Weekend All!  I hope you can enjoy the Holiday!  It will be a very special day for me on Monday because it’s also my Birthday!  I’m not sure how it’s already that time of year and I’m just gonna go with it.  It’s good to be alive.

Welcome to my new followers this week.  It is really so very cool to share my journey with all of you.  This week has been a very full week of ups and downs and roundabouts and I’m pretty exhausted.  Next week I am on a Rest-cation and I can’t wait!  I need the break badly.

It’s that time of week again where I like to review my Moments of Peace and share them with you:

05/18/12 My view from the sun deck as day turns to night. Clear skies and lots of views of planes that night. We are in the flight pattern of 2 different airports and I really enjoy watching the planes fly by.

05/18/12 My view from the sun deck as day turns to night. I really like how the sun’s reflections on the low clouds on the horizon give us the view of extra streaks of light.

05/18/12 Corey and our Cleo Kitty. These 2 are so in love. As you can see, Cleo has her own little playground on the floor with wrapping paper (that she just loves to sit on) and some kitty beds, and toys everywhere. We kinda like her.

05/19/12 My view from my balcony as morning turns to do. Some of the best views of the sky have come from my balcony. It is so nice to be able to see the big sky from our place.

05/19/12 My view from my balcony as morning turns to day. Another really neat view.

05/19/12 My view on a random street corner in West LA as day turns to night. I was running some errands and had to grab the picture before I lost the sun.  Oh and I grabbed it from the car.

05/19/12 My view in West LA as day turns to night. This time I wasn’t Driving While Taking Pictures and was on the sidewalk.

05/19/12 Being able to see Corey perform with improv group The Magic Meathands always gives me peace and lots of laughter. I was so happy to be able to get out and see him on the stage!

05/20/12 We went to Santa Monica, CA to see the solar eclipse on Sunday and it was wonderfully relaxing. The ocean always helps me feel at peace.

05/20/12 My view of the solar eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. The light was getting very dramatic at this point.

05/21/12 My view from the sun deck as day turns to night. Gotta love the twinkling LA nights.

05/21/12 My view from the sun deck as day turns to night. I turned to the right from the last picture and this is what I saw. Oh how I love the pinks!

05/22/12 My view from the sun deck as day turns to evening. It was kinda hot. Look at that intense sun!

05/22/12 My view from the sun deck as day turns to evening. I was trying to be artsy with this but it came out kinda weird. I really like the flatline effect of the sun.

05/23/12 My view on my walk in Santa Monica, CA. Look at that vibrant purple!

05/23/12 Had my absolutely favorite lunch at The Veggie Grill. They call it Buffalo Chickin’ Salad and it is not chicken. It is their own vegetarian version. It is so good and it tastes like chicken with the consistency too. I love it!

05/23/12 My view on my walk in Santa Monica, CA. Huge palm tree!

05/24/12 My view on my walk in Beverly Hills, CA. Such pretty simplicity.

05/24/12 My view on my walk in Beverly Hills, CA. Crazy strong sun!

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Motivation: SOLAR ECLIPSE

Yeah I had heard that we’d be able to see the Solar Eclipse on the west coast but I didn’t think too much about it.  Then Sunday morning it occurred to me that it sure would be cool to see it at the beach.  I brought it up to Corey later that morning and he said, “Well let’s go”.  I don’t think either of us expected that I would actually agree to do it…and then that I would ACTUALLY do it.

I LOVE THE BEACH.  I LOVE THE OCEAN.  It is my place to breathe.  It is my spiritual anchor.  It is where I find most peace and calm and feel most present.  I HAVE BEEN AFRAID TO GO TO THE BEACH since I was diagnosed with lupus almost 2 years ago due to all of the sun exposure.  Not to mention that I also have the fear of getting too hot from the sun and my multiple sclerosis acting up.  I have got to really figure out how I can get myself there more this year because I actually gave in (after some hemming and hawing) and let myself go!  I mean for goodness sakes!  It is only 4 miles away from where I live and I am in Santa Monica, CA ALL THE TIME for doctor appointments.  Why not just take a detour and even drive through there and see the ocean on my way through?

Anyway, I had a wonderful time!  It was hard to see the actual Eclipse happening for most of it but it was so refreshing to be one with the ocean again.  To stand in it and be a part of nature was so fulfilling for me.  I just had to share some pictures with you:

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. The glow from the sun was extra strong and so defined. The sun was more defined in this picture than in most I’ve taken.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. I turned away from the sun to see this palm tree and lamp post in the perfect artsy position for a picture as if they were posing. Thought it came out kinda neat.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. I am in my element.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. Love this action shot of me doing my newest ocean dance move?

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. Oh yeah. Look at that wave crashing. The waves were kinda crazy too.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. Yes, I really did stand in the ocean. It was pretty chilly at first but it did get warmer the more I was in it.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. Corey with his sexy blowing hair posing with the sun.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. There I am trying to be deep and pose with the sun. No sexy flowing hair for me. 

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. I sure was proud of myself for catching the lifeguard helicopter in the shot. Simple pleasures…sometimes.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. And then we went back in time and saw this beautiful ship.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. The sun was getting creative and producing these geometric shapes for us. Even the rays are in perfect places.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. Can’t believe how perfectly aligned the ship, the paraglider thingie and the seagull are with each other and then with the sun in the background.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. The light started getting pretty dramatic.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. One of my favorite things to see in nature is the sunlight reflecting on the ocean.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. Behind me were these pretty white fluffy wispy clouds against a VERY blue sky. And of course the palm trees are awesome too.  Wonderful.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Santa Monica, CA. This line of palm trees caught my eye. I had to catch the view. And as you can see, there’s a light misty fog hanging in the air. Couldn’t see the mountains at all this time and the pier got lost too.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Westchester, CA. Alas, we had somewhere we had to be so we had to leave the beach and it was here that we saw a better view of what was actually happening during the Eclipse.

05/20/12 Solar Eclipse in Westchester, CA. I had decided to try to grab one more picture on the spot and it turned out to be the best one in the whole series of the actual Eclipse itself. You can see the Eclipse happening in what appears to be a smile of light just above the building almost to the center. It was really cool!

 

So as you can see I did it and I had a great time!!!!!!  Neither the lupus or MS bothered me at all while I was at the beach in the sun and I think it was because I was in the moment and I wasn’t worrying about it.  Usually I can feel the sun bothering my symptoms right away.  The symptoms didn’t show up until the next day when my body said it was time to live in a cave of darkness for the day (kicking and screaming might I add) and it really did help!

Thank you to the Solar Eclipse for giving me the motivation I needed to get out and get to the beach where I mentally feel my best!!!!!  I desperately needed to do that for my own sanity and today I can admit that it really was worth it.

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The Many Shades of…

Life?

Feelings?

Disease?

Lupus?

Multiple Sclerosis?

Thoughts?

Realities?

Colors?

Greys?

Emotions?

Me?

ALL OF THE ABOVE.

That is how I’m feeling today.  I used to think in black and white.  Then I discovered there were many shades of black and white.  Then I realized grey happens too.  And there are many shades of grey.  After talking with a friend today I have come to the conclusion that there are also many shades of all colors.  There are even colors that I didn’t even know existed.

THAT IS LIFE.

It is how I feel about the above list and much much more.  What a roller coaster this life is.  What a roller coaster my life is with MS and lupus.  I had a hard week last week mentally.  I felt completely depleted.  The weekend helped a lot.

Saturday was a pretty good day for me.  I was able to spend hours on the phone with a good friend from high school and that would’ve been hard for me to do even a year ago.  Talking can be exhausting for me cognitively (I know I know, those of you who know me can’t believe that with all the talking I do…).  Then I talked to my family after that too.  It was a big phone day.  I was also able to make it to Corey’s Improv Show to see him perform with the group he’s in, The Magic Meathands, along with a bunch of other really talented peeps and had a ball laughing and getting out of my head.

Sunday ended up being a really nice fulfilling day too.  Yeah, I was tired from my activities the day before but with a little coaxing Corey convinced me to go to the beach and watch the solar eclipse.  It was so nice to be able to walk on the beach in the cool sand (never walked on cool sand) and have my feet in the ocean while watching the eclipse.  It is when I’m standing in the ocean that I feel the most connected, present and at peace.  Everything else just falls away.  I don’t get to do it enough because I am afraid to be in the sun too much due to my lupus sun sensitivities and MS heat sensitivities so this was a real treat for me.  And the fresh air was wonderful.  It helped me relax A LOT.  Last night I thought I had gotten away with being in the sun because I didn’t feel too physically bad at all.  I think I actually felt better physically.

…UNTIL I woke up this morning with what I call the “heavies”.  UGH.

I was FINALLY able to figure out THIS MORNING that it’s the sun that triggers lupus and the heat that triggers the MS and thus the “heavies” begin.  What are the “heavies”?  You know those X-Ray vest thingies they put on you at the dentist?  That is what it feels like all over.  It’s crazy heavy fatigue.  It means I am in DESPERATE need of rest and I need to stop everything.  Oh and that wasn’t my plan today whatsoever.  I had THINGS TO DO.  Well, my body told me it needed rest and I was forced to listen.  Those THINGS TO DO are going to have to wait.  (I still hate to wait even though IT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME.)

So up and down and up and down and up and down I go.  The many shades that I referred to in the beginning of this post kept coming up in my thoughts this morning.  I don’t regret having a good weekend and probably doing too much.  I feel pretty darn good about it.  (That’s huge for me by the way).  It’s just soooooooooooo hard (words can’t describe my feelings–hence the many shades…) to live life with lupus and MS.  So frustrating.  Yet I’m grateful I was able to walk the beach and see the ocean.  I’m grateful to have had my time with Corey and that he performs and gives me excuses to get out and to laugh.  Laughter is the best.

And the many shades continue…

I will end with posting a couple of YouTube videos of James Morrison singing “Wonderful World”.  I LOVE HIS VOICE.  The first is the official music video which is really kinda odd but I like the production of the song.  The second is just audio and no video of the acoustic version of the same song.  I hope you enjoy them.  I heard this song almost exactly 2 years ago right before my whole body went to hell in what I later found out was a lupus flare.  At the time I heard this song my eyes had gone wacky and I was having an extremely hard time seeing and processing light.  I was feeling pretty darn down.  I heard this song and he really hit me.  He not only hit on my emotions that I still feel a lot to this day but he reminds me that I’m not alone.

Enjoy!

 

 

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