STUPID UNPREDICTABILITY!

I CAN’T STRESS THIS ENOUGH! THE UNPREDICTABILITY OF MY IBS, LUPUS AND MS IS THE WORST THING EVER TO DEAL WITH WHEN IT COMES TO DEALING WITH CHRONIC DISEASES!

I know I was busy today. I know I was doing a lot of physical things. I know I can feel the weather coming (rain) on Friday. I know that I have IBS. I know that I have lupus. I know that I have MS. I know that I need to take care of myself. I know that the diseases are their own entities. I know they can act up whenever they want. I know I probably (notice my denial) pushed it today. I know that my diseases can flare up randomly.

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW!!!!

BUT I DON’T KNOW…

!@#$%^&*(@ IT! (Insert swear word of choice here to express the feelings). No words can really fit for me to really express the frustration when it comes up.

There I was going along my merry way and then all the sudden my IBS just went BOOM in my digestive system and I started having stomach cramps OUT OF NOWHERE. WHAT THE?! I haven’t had stomach cramps in quite awhile thank you very much. I don’t want them right now. It’s actually been VERY NICE without them.

Sooooo, even though I’m almost done with stuff for today, I have to be done even sooner because MY BODY HAS DECIDED IT’S DONE.

…………………………..gggrrrr

So deep breaths I will take to calm down. Getting too worked up will set the stomach cramping on fire…

Time to rest and destress if possible…hopefully that helps.

It’s so UNPREDICTABLE it’s crazy. I haven’t been having a lot of stomach problems lately…I’ve been trying not to remark about it on purpose. But the IBS is still there. Yep. Hasn’t left. Go figure.

So now I do feel a bit better because I vented and wrote about it. Gotta calm down and destress and give in to my body. It wants love.

FINE! FINE! FINE! FINE! FINE!

Please let me eat tonight belly. Please…eating only toast is boring and doesn’t help fill me up…

PLEASE…