I’M COUGHING TODAY?! TODAY?!
I’ve been waiting for and fighting off something like a sick bug that I could feel trying to start for what seems like 2 months and it has worked. I have held it off. AND TODAY IT WANTS TO START GETTING BAD?
UM HELLO! COREY AND I ARE TRYING TO GET AWAY THIS WEEKEND TOGETHER TO GO TO CAMBRIA!
We’re overdue for it. This is supposed to be to celebrate 15 years together (actual Anniversary was in November) and 6 years married (in November too). We weren’t able to go because our poor Cleo Kitty was sick and I don’t blame her for that.
And all has been going pretty well with my health (I mean ups and downs and IBS stuff yesterday if you read my Blog post about that–it’s better if you’re wondering at least for the moment) and it’s been pretty manageable till NOW?!
NOW?!
I TRIED not to have any expectations about whether we would really take this trip but of course I have some. Of course I’m feeling like I should go into CRISIS MODE and think EVERYTHING’S OVER.
I should just crouch in a dark corner and not come out for goodness sakes. I mean, if the cough has started on Wednesday, how can I be better enough for Friday? I know how my cough is. And how can I get those “things” done I think I HAVE to get done in time for then?
WHY ME? WHY NOW? DANG IT!
So action time it is. No not running around like a wild mess (just…yet…anyway…). I got up, called my doctor and have made an appointment for 2:15pm. HOW COOL ARE THEY TO BE SO AVAILABLE? Oh and I get to see my favorite PA there too so another positive. I’m moving in the right direction. It is currently 12:45pm. I have to finish up writing this ASAP (and that’s true) so I can shower (always a big event for me with MS and lupus and now this dang sickness that’s coming on that has also turned into a fever–OK 99.1 but for me that’s a fever no matter what ANY doctor says) and drive over there and get to the solution ASAP. I have been told time and time again and even lectured by my doctors to not play with my cough. I have asthmatic tendencies that could EASILY turn into full on bronchitis or pneumonia especially with a messed up and compromised immune system so I CANNOT (emphasis on the NOT here) play with this. There is NO WAITING. If I feel a cough I do my best to get to the doctor ASAP.
And I have more of a MOTIVATION. Let’s kill this now. NOW.
DID I SAY NOW ENOUGH? You know, as if I have any control over a sick bug…..
Ha ha ha. Yeah right.
But I will do what I can to kill it.
Earlier this year I declared it was the year of OPERATION NURTURE NAHLEEN 2013!
Well…this is it.
OPERATION NURTURE NAHLEEN IS IN FULL EFFECT!
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P.S. I will do my best NOT to go past the NOW, not to go past TODAY and NOT to jump into the FUTURE which is only an illusion ANYWAY.
GOLLY I HOPE THIS HELPS AND WORKS.
I really really really really really (I can’t stress the reallys enough here) wanted to get away for a few days. THAT’S ALL. I haven’t gotten away in so long.
PLEASE.
I guess I’ll be flip flopping between Crisis and Operation Nurture all day. Suppose I’m human right.
Hmm. Interesting.
I’m a HUMAN…
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My sweetie and I planned a much needed weekend camping in Josua Tree. Then I got a cold the week before. Long story short, i was sick, but we went anyway. I spent most of the time sleeping in the tent and he did some exploring with the dogs on his own. It wasn’t ideal, but I’m glad we went through with our plans. So was he. 🙂
Thank you for your encouragement Dawn! I’m so glad I went anyway. I know it helped me because I was away, out of my little box, out of my head and Cambria is such a relaxing, peaceful and beautiful place. It was exactly what I needed.