Happy Halloween! Hope you’re enjoying the day! Let the Holidays Begin!
Hi there. Feels like I’ve been off the Blog Radar for a really long time!
How are all of you?
I have had quite a struggle lately with my health. I’m currently on what is becoming a long journey to find out what is bothering my digestive system so much. It is a difficult and draining path right now as I call my doctors and ask for their input, continue to feel intense yuckiness, see new doctors as quickly as possible, try to live my life, take care of Disability Business, take care of life business, take care of other medical business, try to take care of my MS AND LUPUS, have some fun perhaps, spend time with my husband, Corey and my Cleo Kitty and do what I need to do for mental health and stability. Exhausting.
It is definitely really hard right now but I have hope that with this big group of medical supporters, I will find answers. I feel like a coin that can flip any time from “full of hope” on one side to “full of dread” without even a second passing. Right now it feels like I’ll never get answers but I know it’s because when I have discomfort in my torso, that is all I can even manage to process in my mind. It is the center of my body, the center of my Being.
And so I’m burned out. I’m discouraged. I’m frustrated. I’m grieving the whole health situation I have found myself in. I’m also hopeful, I feel loved, I feel very supported by all of you, I feel resolved to get answers and there’s even some faith mixed in there. I don’t like the other “negative” choices of how to deal, so I’m gonna have to choose to keep on keepin’ on and with any luck I’ll find some answers and start to feel better.
I want my life back.
I AM DETERMINED TO GET IT!