Monthly Archives: September 2012

125 BLOG POSTS!

Oh my goodness! I have hit the 125 Blog post mark!!!!!!

So cool. I couldn’t have done it without you so thank you!

It’s been a roller coaster week and I’m currently in a symptom flare (MS and lupus are FUN–NOT!) so I will try to stay positive (which I’m hoping will help me). I wanted to take a moment and thank you all for being here with me on this writing journey. I have always felt like a writer ever since I was very young and I have really struggled with it. In 5th grade I wrote a children’s holiday story and my teacher liked it so much that she tried to work with me to expand on it a bit and add a few more details (you know, to improve it) so that she’d feel comfortable trying to get it published in a children’s magazine (or something of the sort–what I heard was published) but I think I took her criticism so personally that I blocked her and it off and refused to change the story AT ALL because I liked it the way it was. And soooo, the story was not published. That blocked me and disappointed me for a few years. I still have the story and am hoping to feel willing to expand on it now after all these years.

Then I started writing more in middle school and either I didn’t want anyone to read it and kept it to myself or what I wrote was crazy serious deep (hello puberty) and my teachers asked for lighter stories. And then as a junior in high school I seemed to really blossom as a writer and all of my teachers highly encouraged me and told me they really thought I’d get somewhere with it and to keep expanding on it. Well, I expanded on it and that all really went well.

AND THEN in college I took one writing class and the professor was “not impressed” with my writing and told me I wrote too much and wanted me to get to the point. So here I was completely confused because one school of thought told me to expand and the other wanted me to cut it down. At that point I shut down writing. I may not have had I not been going into the high maintenance field television production that took up most of my time and focus. Production also helped me learn how to express myself in a very different creative way. I had to show you, not write it for you to experience. So, I veered off the writing path and took quite a journey into production.

Yet, there was always this deep soulful need to write. It was in me. It had to come out. But then I thought I had to be perfect. FEAR started to run me and it just never really worked. When I was first diagnosed with multiple sclerosis almost 10 years ago, I had people from different parts of my life who had nothing to do with each other telling me to write my story because of how I express myself. They told me I had a story to tell. They told me that I could really help others and probably myself. That it’s important to let others know what really happens with chronic illness.

And I tried, I really did. I tried too hard. I started up this Blog in 2009 and I think I wrote only 3 posts. Actually, I think I still have them posted if you want to check them out. Reading them now I know I still wasn’t ready. The real me wasn’t really coming out. I felt raw and vulnerable.

Meanwhile, people still said that I needed to tell my story. That I could really help. And that writer in me wrestled with my ego until it finally BURST OUT in March of this year. It has been over 6 months and I have no plans to stop. I had no idea where this journey would take me. I still have so much more to write.

Thank you to those of you who have commented on my posts, encouraged me, read the serious ones, read the long ones, read the silly ones, put up with the ’80s and partied with me, have gone on my doctor appointments with me, have shared my Moments of Peace with me, have felt MS and lupus with me, have read my complaints, have read my hope, and who are teaching me about me. You all play a part in who I am and for that I am truly grateful.

Please feel free to comment any time about any post (I would love to hear from you), to Follow my Blog, to share my Blog with others, to email me in private (you can find a link to my email on the “About Me” page), to friend me on Facebook (Nahleen Blake), to follow me on Twitter (nahleenblake), and connect in general. Oh and by the way, I’m thinking of starting up my own Facebook page where I’m hoping to share my favorite quotes, pictures, silliness, fun, stuff about me, stuff about you if you want, music, anecdotes of life, Blog posts, etc. Keep an eye out for that update soon. More to come!

And thank you all for being you. You help me to be me. And that soul writer in me is FINALLY starting to feel satisfied. I look forward to more of this journey. It has been truly amazing!

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Unpredictability is the Worst!

Lupus.

Multiple sclerosis.

‘Nuff said.

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It’s An ’80s Kinda Day Part 21!

Phew!  We have Internet back today!  We didn’t yesterday.  I was getting worried I might not be able to do an ’80s Blog this week and that would be sad.  Quality Problems.  So without further ado…

1. Jessie’s Girl  By: Rick Springfield

OK now.  This is probably the most well known ’80s song LIKE EVER.  I mean, it’s Rick Springfield.  And at some point or another we all either wanted to be Jessie’s Girl or that we had Jessie’s Girl right?  He seems a bit obsessed don’tcha think?  Nice.  Writing on a “brick wall”.  Of course they’re using spray paint.  Love that this is OBVIOUSLY in a studio.  Hello fake couple.  And then Rick just happens to show up in the corner and start stalking them OF COURSE.  As usual with the ’80s he’s a stalker.  Gotta love his feathered hair.  I think he’s supposed to be looking straight at the camera lens but if you’ll notice, he’s looking a bit off to the side.  Um, we’re over here!  Nice suit.  What’s the the crazy shadow behind him?  Geez.  Lower the lights people!  Nice creased pants and short sleeve black shirt unbuttoned a bit.  Trying to be sexy are we?  Ha!  Love the star filter effect!  Too funny.  You know, Jessie’s girl doesn’t seem that great.  Boring.  Nice shiny jacket with shoulder pads?  Hee hee.  Nice white tennis shoes with the suit.  What the?  He’s not scared of the woman behind him in the bathroom mirror?  And I know we all play our guitars in the bathroom too.  Smash that mirror!  That’ll show her.  So does he wish he had Jessie’s Girl?  I’m not sure we’re clear about that.

2. Holding Back the Years  By: Simply Red

This song brings back lots of memories as an early teen.  I had the lovely opportunity to stay at the beach with a branch of my family (at least 2 summers in a row) and I hung out quite a bit with a cousin of mine chasing boys and causing trouble.  This is one of those songs that brings me right back.  I think I appreciate this song a lot more now than I did back then.  If I remember right I liked to mock the lead singer and his hair.  Pretty architecture in the first shot.  Oh wait, is that a cemetery?  Well, now I’m not so sure.  Nice scenery.  Ha!  He has cassette tapes piled up.  Ancient for sure.  Wow.  His red curly hair is everywhere!  I’m thinking he’s having deep thoughts here.  Um, anyone else disturbed about what he’s holding in his hand and the placement of it?  Why do I feel like that was a mistake?  Where’s he going?  Why’s he leaving?  Oh no, the little boy fell.  Daddy issues?  Whoa.  She has big hair.  Random.  Nice effect with the huge empty checkerboard floor (yet another one) and the little table with Mom and son.  Will someone please push his hair out of his eyes?  Oh the childhood years.  Feeling really depressed now.  Are they playing in the cemetery?  Not my ideal place to play but OK.  Wait, I’m unclear here.  Who’s making out with that woman?  Again, not an ideal place to make out.  But who am I to say?  Cool train.  Do you think anyone hears him singing on the train?  He seems kinda loud to me.

3. Morning Train (9 to 5)  By: Sheena Easton

And of course we start on train tracks.  Get it?  And then there’s this song right?  We probably all know this song too.  Very catchy beat whether we want to catch on or not.  Who HATES those kinds of alarm clocks?  Um, no thanks.  Don’t need to jump across the room when it goes off.  Nice green body suit thing.  Is it me or does she look really funny on that bike?  Nice hair.  And she doesn’t look too stable on that bike either…what on earth?  I was wondering what was in that basket.  A green flag??  For the train?  What’s going on?  Holy eye makeup.  And he doesn’t really care…Such strange camera angles.  So much of it is her looking down at the camera.  Gets me a little motion sick.  You?  Right.  She’s pulling the gears.  Sure she is.  Oh and of course she’s cleaning it too.  Uh huh.  Sure.  What is with her and that pole?  OH sure.  And she’s riding in the front of the train.  That’s realistic.  Is it me or is that song really long?

4. Life In a Northern Town  By:  Dream Academy

Oh I used to think this song was so deep.  Hearing it does get me kinda nostalgic.  Where is this?  Seems like it might be in a northern town huh?  Oh whoops, don’t fall there guy!  Be careful going down that steep hill.  Nice wind sound by the way.  Why are they carrying instruments?  I’d hate to damage one of those by falling…That doesn’t look like lemonade.  Looks cold and damp there.  Cool building.  Whoa.  He looked like he was gonna run over those two poor children.  Geez.  We can’t see you.  There’s underwear hanging in your face.  Oh there you are.  Wait, there’s a woman in the group?  I don’t think I realized that.  And what is with that very ODD video effect above their heads?  Seems like he’s walking A LOT.  Ha!  Remember those bouncy balls we used to sit on?  Ha!  Nice cameo picture shot of the Beatles with Paul McCartney especially.  I love that every time they sing, “Hey!” they throw their arms up in the air.  OK.  What’s the significance of the balloons?  What am I missing?  Hee hee.  Love how there’s clearly a light in his face to show him on camera as it seems to be getting dark there.  His face has a glowing golden hue.  Notice they all have that golden hue on their faces now.

5. Too Shy  By: Kajagoogoo

What the heck kind of name is that?  Who’s “googooing”???  So weird.  Oh the ’80s.  They were unique.  Did this group even have another hit?  I have no idea.  I don’t remember much about this song as a kid except that now I hear it quite a bit.  It’s lookin’ like some nice hair there.  Can’t really tell yet.  I’m likin’ all the outfits…That gal has nice big hair.  Are they supposed to be at a dance club?  Nice crazy blonde hair with dark hair too.  And is that a skimpy yellow tank top and green pants he’s wearing?  I bet he thinks he’s cool.  Yes, she’s tired.  We get it.  So now we’ve gone back in time?  Welcome back home boys from where?  You know, I’m liking all the outfits in the band.  Very colorful.  He’s gotta be wearing a wig.  Wait, so now we’re supposed to be in the present?  When’d that happen?  Will somebody please fix her tucked in shirt in the back?  It’s all uneven.  OK.  Well that happened.

And that’s that.  Hope you had fun.  Got any you wanna share?  Would love to see them!

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150 DAYS OF WALKING!

WOW! I have walked every day for 150 days!

AMAZING! I would never have guessed that I could do that before Physical Therapy almost 5 months ago. NEVER. And how does that saying go? “Never say never.”

Hey, if that’s true, I’ll say I’ll never lose the weight I want to lose ever. Do you think that’ll work? So I’ll be losing weight from now on right? Ha! If only. But you never know.

I am so proud of myself. I think it’s really paying off. I make it a point to take a walk. It may be 5 minutes or 30 minutes. It all depends on what I’m doing. It may be outside, inside, a walking dance meditation or I march in place. The point is, I’m doing it. That’s almost 5 months of moving my legs.

How cool is that? I have multiple sclerosis and lupus and I have been walking EVERY DAY now for months. I have walked even during this crazy hot summer, through hard times, better times, illnesses and you name it. I have WALKED.

One day at a time!

And I don’t plan on taking a day off from walking any day soon…

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Moments of Peace Part 18

Hey all.  It’s been awhile since I’ve posted my Moments of Peace.  Life’s certainly been happening and it’s been hard to focus.  Hope you’re all well.  Happy Friday!  Welcome to my new followers!  You are all neato!  By the way, I’m happy to report that I’m getting better and better with the help of heavy duty antibiotics to treat the small intestine bacterial infection that was taking over my torso.  Hopefully it stays that way.  I take my last antibiotic pill for it tomorrow morning.  Crossing my fingers for sure!

09/14/12 My view from the sun deck as day turns to night. ‘Tis the time of year for golden sunsets…and fires… It was mighty hot last Friday and some fires started a few miles north of us. The dark stuff you see along the horizon is smoke. Can’t help it. Smoke always makes for pretty sunsets.  Thankfully, the awesome firefighters were able to contain the fire.

09/15/12 My view on my walk in West LA as day turns to mostly night. Went on a pretty late walk and it was barely light out. I like these lamp posts.

09/15/12 My view from the sun deck as day turns to night. Love this glowing sunset. The colors were so deep and vivid. There’s still some lingering smoke from the nearby fire. And I always love to see the sparkling city lights.  Oh and might I add, it was 104 in West LA that day.  Quite a scorcher!

09/16/12 My view on my walk in West LA. It was still quite hot but not nearly as boiling as the day before. Corey “kicked” me out (nicely) because I was going crazy about whether Cleo Kitty was really ill or having a bad reaction to her meds or what and I had just had enough with the heat and my own health. Taking a walk DID help. I’ll admit it. Love these bottle brush trees. It’s cool to see the detail in this.

09/16/12 My view on my walk in West LA. This was another one I took on my walk to escape for a bit. Loving the pinks and just look at the intensity of the sun!

09/16/12 My view on my walk in West LA. Really like this one. Love catching the sun “peaking” through a palm tree. Again, the sun was so intense. It’s a wonder I didn’t melt while I was outside.

09/16/12 My view on my walk in West LA. I love these trees. They are really flourishing right now. It’s been more humid than usual and I’m guessing that’s the reason. Something about the way the light hits these trees really caught my eye and helped me calm down from all the stress. Plus I could hear the breeze through the leaves and that is one of my favorite things.

09/17/12 And then there’s my Cleo Kitty. She was so ill on Sunday. By Monday she was sooooooooo much better. It is a true miracle! She’s had a really great week and seems so happy to be alive! I almost forget about Sunday…

09/17/12 I love this little girl so much. Ignore my hair. I’m soooooo not ready for pictures in these. But what matters is my Cleo Kitty!

09/17/12 And just one more of her. I think the picture says it all. She is so special and a gift.

09/17/12 My view in West LA as day turns to night. Took this in a Whole Foods parking lot of all places. Thought I’d change the angle to put a new view on things. Love those glowing clouds.

09/17/12 My view in West LA as day turns to night. The sun’s peeking between the trees.

09/17/12 Here our Cleo Kitty is joining us for dinner. We try every night to make sure to pull up her chair so she can join us and she does quite often. She’d really like to eat what we’re eating too. It’s so good to see her back out in the world.

09/18/12 My view from the sun deck as day turns to night. Liking how the blues are blending with the golds.  Oh yeah.  And there’s a little sliver of a moon.  Can you find it?

09/19/12 My view from the sun deck as day turns to night. Why yes that’s a plane. I get to see planes fly by quite a bit when I’m on the sun deck as they fly in off the water from their U-turn to land at LAX. And can you find the moon again? It’s neat to get them both in the shot.

09/20/12 My view from my balcony as morning arrives. WELL HELLO there beautiful sky. Thank you for the gift.

09/20/12 My view from the sun deck as day turns to night. Love how the sky has a darkened hue around the moon as it takes over the sunset.

09/20/12 This one was so weird. Such an odd beauty. I thought I’d take a look inland from the sun deck as day turns to night (toward Hollywood) and I saw that the west side was covered in a very very light haze/fog.   The east side, however, wasn’t.  What we see here is the result of that.  See that bright building reflection to the left? The sun appears to be reflecting off the building and the haze/fog as if the building has a force field of some kind. Really neat. Never seen anything like it before.

And that wraps up a long awaited Moments of Peace!  I hope you all have a peaceful weekend!

Much love.

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It’s An ’80s Kinda Day Part 20!

20 ’80S POSTS AND THE MUSIC IS ENDLESS!!!

Jumping right in!

1. Super Freak  By: Rick James

Hee hee!  Who doesn’t love Rick James?!  Crazy guy.  And noooo, this is not the OTHER guy from the ’90s who stole his music and wore ridiculous pants.  This is the original music guy.  SHE’S SUPER FREAK-AY YEOW!  Love the sparkly wig in the first shot.  Gotta be crazy right away.  Hey, stop making eyes at me Rick James.  What the heck?  Now we’re in a white studio.  Cheap budget I guess.  And we have crazy dancing women.  I’m sensing a crazy theme here.  Whoa!  That woman has long hair!  Nice sparkly shirt he’s wearing that’s wide open.  He is too much!  I wonder how much of the glitter from his wig got in his eyes.  I don’t think I’d take him home to my motha either.  Wait, is that a body suit he’s wearing?  And boots???  Scary!  LOVE the door in the middle of nowhere.  Is that a portal or something?  Yeah okay he’s playing that guitar.  Of course he is.  Will someone wipe off his face already???  That mustache doesn’t fit his style AT ALL.  Someone shave it off please.  I wanna be an Extra in his video who just dances around.  Looks like fun.  Ha!  I love that part: “Temptations Sing!” and then we see them for a few seconds.

2. Vacation  By: The Go-Go’s

I’m thinkin’ Belinda Carlisle should’ve stayed in the Go-Go’s.  Definitely fits her more than when she went solo but that’s just me.  She’s such a youngun in this.  And an awful lip syncer.  This one’s a true ’80s classic.  Who doesn’t know this song?  Vacation is all I really want right now too!  What a coincidence!  Nice cab and hair.  I wanna just sing in a terminal of some sort that’s actually an obvious studio, with some other gals.  Wouldn’t it be awesome to break out into song in an airport?  Awesome yo-yo.  They all have some pretty rad hair in this.  How long do you think it took that gal to get the bubble gum bubble right in the shot???  Ha!  Those popcorn boxes still exist now!  Guess those may never change.  That’s it.  I’m gonna make a band and we’re all gonna meet in a travel terminal and start jammin’.  I think I’m missing out on all the fun.  And of course we’ve “clearly” time traveled in this video too.  And look at them water ski so perfectly…and what an awful shot of them in the studio fakely water skiing up close.  AWKWARD!  What’s with the random sailboat on one of the travel trunks?  What does the guy with the broom have to do with ANYTHING at the end????

3. Always Something There  By: Naked Eyes

OK.  Who DOESN’T know this song???  Another ’80s classic for sure.  This song is STILL played into the ground.  I think I’ve bebopped to this forever at this point.  It’s a part of my being even when I don’t want it to be.  And I’ve always thought the beginning music was a mess.  I think they were trying to be cool but it doesn’t work.  Huh.  I sorta get it now.  That’s wedding bells in the beginning.  Interesting.  Didn’t pick up on that till the video.  See what I’ve missed?  Wait, is the groom Scott Baio????  Oh and I’m seeing a love triangle of sorts here.  Trouble.  Uh oh.  I see a stalker again.  The ’80s and their stalkers.  The singer’s kinda weird looking.  Not what I pictured at all.  That woman doesn’t look that great to pine over.  What’s with the storming off?  Gotta love the gritty film look.  What the???  He goes into a restaurant where the happy couple is dancing and sits down right next to them and starts singing.  And she’s totally flaunting it all.  So weird!  Wow she hates the paparazzi huh?  Scott Baio sure is on the phone a lot in this.  Phone phone phone.  I hate to tell the singer, but she’s got too much drama.  He can do better.  Oh and look at that.  The 2 guys work together.  And…he was probably NEVER with her in the first place.

4. Back On the Chain Gang  By: The Pretenders

Fun group.  Can’t help but get caught up in the song.  Hey what’s that in the beginning?  Is that a VHS tape?  Ancient.  Fun!  I wanna jump up into the air and have the sky surrounding me.  She has cool hair.  Yep.  Lots of people walking by on the streets in the city while she sings at the water with the wind blowing in her hair.  So I THINK the guy she’s singing about is the first business guy we saw in the beginning who’s blonde because he keeps showing up.  Not really clear.  And let’s all sing, “Hoo Haw” over and over again in the background.  She looks like she’s trying to be Joan Jett.  Hurry!  Run up those stairs!  She’s following that guy…hmm…great social statement here.  Who’s doing what work here????  It’s all in the images.  Anyone getting the idea that it’s cold where they’re shooting this?  She looks kinda chilly.  Kind of a boring video image-wise.  Don’tcha think?  Not a lot to look at.  Look at those herds of people walking back into the rat race.

5. Sunglasses At Night  By: Corey Hart

I think we’re all pretty clear right from the beginning of the song that he wears his sunglasses at night.  My husband, Corey, jokes about how his mother must’ve named him after Corey Hart because his 2 other sisters have ’80s singers names too.  And then ha ha.  Not really…I think.  Someone needs to straighten up this guy’s room.  And whoa.  Getting motion sickness as we zoom in on him right away.  Reaching for the sunglasses of course…Was he supposed to be cute?  What’s with the hair and poochy lips?  I swear he’s pooching them extra.  Aaahh.  He’s looking at me with those poochies!  I’m cracking up over here.  Nice shoulder pads.  Yep.  They’re all wearing sunglasses–those shady uniformed peeps.  Ha!  Phone booth.  And why is he belting the song into the phone?  Gotta love how every time he’s wearing his shades there are equal reflections in each lens.  He looks like he’s limping.  I hope he’s OK.  Poor guy.  Yes.  We’re all shady, undercover, hiding individuals.  EVEN that mysterious woman.  Cool lighting through the grates as he runs up those dark stairs.  Scary police state might I add.  Extra scary cuz it’s so ’80s.  What is with his weird writhing in the bed?  Such a strange angle of the shot too.  Looks like she finally fell for those poochy lips of his afterall.

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Song Writer?!

Lately I’ve been waking up with song lyrics in my head. These are new song lyrics. And I can hear the music and the singer! It’s just bits and pieces but it’s there. A couple of times I’ve woken up in the middle night and thought I’d remember it in the morning and I haven’t…OF COURSE.

DUH.

That’s why they say to leave paper and pen near your bed. OBVIOUSLY. I mean, I gotta be realistic.

This has been happening for the past few months off and on. For awhile I was given inspiration almost every night and I’d wake up and clamber around for the pen and paper I FINALLY put near my bed, and while half asleep I’d write down my latest creative gift. I’d throw on my glasses (I’m so blind) and try to write while lying in bed half conscious and hope I could read my writing in the morning. The only light I have is the light from my clock. I’d turn on a light but I don’t want to wake Corey and well, I’ll admit, the lamp near my bed’s not working. Yes, I know. Silly Nahleen get your lamp fixed, but it just hasn’t been a priority. Except maybe now it is…

Soooooo, the question is, am I a SONG WRITER?!!!!

Never (never say never) in a bazillion years would I EVER have thought I’d be a song writer. I didn’t think I was “clever” enough or something ridiculous. Honestly it never occurred to me that I would be.

But now I think, why not? I mean, I’m a writer. I’ve written poetry before. The world is wide open to me. The possibilities are endless. (And then my head goes in the fantasy direction and pictures myself having this glorious career in music and all is well…oh the fairy tales.)

I JUST CAN’T THINK TOO HARD ABOUT IT.

Isn’t that really the point????

I’m sure that’s why the lyrics come to me in my dreams. That way maybe I’ll accept them for what they are and they haven’t passed all the Nahleen barriers…

So today I woke up with more song lyrics, the voice and the music in my head. These words are sticking with me big time. I wrote them down and then (GASP!), I recorded myself singing them on my phone. SSSHHHH don’t tell anyone. SCARY! And then I found myself asking my husband to help me record it on our computer. Weird.

WHO AM I???

Am I a song writer?!

These lyrics were so profound to me this morning that I feel the need to share them with you:

“Do what you need
It will all work out.”–Nahleen Blake Copyright 2012 (ha!)

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Picking Up the Pieces

Oh my goodness. What a weekend it was! I am so relieved to get through it.

On Saturday, it was 104 degrees here in West Los Angeles, CA! Crazy ridiculousness! Thank goodness the AC was working. However, it was still hot in the apartment if you ask my MS and lupus. OH yes it was. Yet, at the same time, somehow I got out with Corey to run some errands. I needed to get away from the building. Like in a car get away. I hadn’t been in a car to go anywhere in over a week and my little visits to the sun deck and my walks around the block just weren’t cutting it. Nope. So for sanity’s sake I got out and it was good to do so even though my body was yelling at me.

On Sunday, it was a bit cooler but still too darn hot. And it was an awful day because our Cleo Kitty (who’s been doing quite well since her cancer diagnosis in December 2011) was very very sick and we really weren’t sure what was going on. We think it was a bad reaction to medication but we’re really not sure. It was one of the hardest days I’ve had in a really long time. And the GREAT news today (Monday) is that she’s doing much better and almost seems like herself again. She didn’t eat for 24 hours. Very scary…when she did finally eat a little bit it was so exciting!

Meanwhile, I’ve still been fighting this small intestine bacterial infection. So while it was so hot and then Cleo was sick, my stomach was churning at times. The good news is that the infection seems to be getting better and I’m functioning more in my life. Today I stopped taking 1 of the 2 antibiotics I was on to treat it so hopefully that helps a bit to clear my head. I tend to feel a bit woozy on them.

So needless to say, we’re trying to settle back into a norm here. Thankfully it isn’t AS HOT here and Cleo’s recovering. I feel so blessed and grateful that we are given the gift of more time with our little girl. She is truly very special and definitely a fighter.

And as much as I feel like I SHOULD BE hitting the ground running, there will be no such thing today. I have a few more things that need to be done, one errand to do which will help me get out and otherwise it’s resting with Cleo.

Gotta give myself room to pick up the pieces and recover in all areas. Most of it can wait.

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Hope

I have hope.

And it’s in the forefront of my mind, not somewhere in the back being pushed aside by yuckiness.

It’s been a really hard week for me. I’ve been dealing with this small intestine bacterial infection and the antibiotics that are sent there to go to war with it. It’s so not fun when there is a war in my digestive system. Talk about feeling messed up!

And then for it to be hot, humid, have lupus and multiple sclerosis on top of it!

UGH!!!!!!–And that doesn’t even come close to explaining it.

So this morning I woke up with hope. I could feel that it had somehow made its way closer to the front of my mind again. I am feeling a bit better. I feel like I’ve turned that corner and can glimpse the “feeling better” part of it all.

The yuckiness has been coming in waves…so for the moment I’ll do my best to be content with where I am.

I’ll sit with my hope and see what happens.

Thank you all for being there. It helps a lot.

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It’s An ’80s Kinda Day Part 19!

Bring it on!

1.  Down Under  By: Men At Work

This has got to be one of the most well known ’80s songs EVER.  What the heck?  What’s with the one strapped leotard/swimsuit on that guy???  And did he just jump into the shot?  Yes, of course.  Banging bottles with drumsticks makes that specific drum sound.  Uh huh.  What’s up with the guy’s hair in the truck?  Of course.  Kick that truck!  ACK!  Look at all those people hidden away in the van.  Weirdness already.  I think I’d be nervous too if I met up with a strange lady in the desert who had a table set up to eat and invited me over.  Scary mustache!  And you know, we all sit on tree branches playing our flutes.  Duh!  Oh now we’re inside?  Dude that guy in the awful fake blonde wig is tall–or faked to look as such of course.  It took me forever to figure out he was saying “Vegemite Sandwich”.  It doesn’t sound so good to me.  Hilarious!  Their overly theatrical actions are cracking me up!  And you can’t help but love their outfits.  Wait.  Now they’re back in the desert?  What on earth?  3 of them are digging with invisible shovels to the beat and 2 others are dancing?  What’s going on?  And now they’re hopping around like kangaroos…Yes, I’m sure they’re really in Bombay…Nice basic studio set.  Well, I’m not sure if I’ll ever be the same again.

2. I Can’t Wait  By: Nu Shooz

They were kinda cool.  Liked the beat.  I mean, she couldn’t wait.  Can any of us ever wait for anything?  OK.  Thanks for sharing your pic of your dog with us all.  Tools falling into the shot in slow motion.  Alrighty.  And a banana too???  Can’t tell what that is opening and closing in the scene as we zoom into the dog on the floor.  Yep.  Someone making this video knows special effects.  Bet that dog is just thrilled to be wearing sunglasses.  Oh I had no idea there was a woman in this scene at all it was so dark.  Ha!  She’s looking at slides…nice plastic cactus in the background.  Sure.  A whole fish fits in there.  Not sure what this all has to do with the song but OK.  Nice shoulder pads, of course.  And gotta love those puffy bangs.  Had bunches of them myself.  They were hard work.  So she can’t wait till they’re all alone so she can do what with all those tools EXACTLY?????  I really think the producer wanted to show how much cooler their video was over all the others.  SOOOO RANDOM!!  And she looks bored.  And now that I’m dizzy and nauseous from falling for it and watching that thing go back and forth across the screen…Well that happened.

3. (You’ve Gotta) Fight For Your Right (To Party)  By: The Beastie Boys

Oh dear.  They’re all sitting there lookin’ like “nerds”.  This should be good.  Lovin’ the pulled up pants.  Wag that finger Mom.  You tell ’em!  Of course.  Bring soda and pie.  And duh, “bad” people will show up!  Easiest door (if it even was one) to kick in ever.  And the cool dudes enter.  I mean, if there was ever anything I needed to learn back then, it was that I gotta fight for my right to party.  I mean, seriously.  It was SUCH A DRAG not to.  Except it’s too bad I wasn’t much of a party girl.  When I look back I was so BORING!  Very funny that all the people at the party are kinda dressed the same and almost hush hush.  Ew.  He just spit all that soda in her face.  Yeah sure I’d make out with you if you forced me down on the couch.  Funny that we don’t even see her face at all.  As if he’s really kissing her anyway.  Great.  Now there’s a fire.  What the heck?  Now some other dude is making out with her?  Geez.  Hmm.  Yelling into a phone receiver (ancient with a cord and everything) is gonna do what now?  And now long haired dudes.  I think I’d be pretty scared if the punch bowl was steaming like that.  And it’s always important to write “BATHROOM” in marker on the outside of the door in your own apartment.  I always thought it’d be cool to throw cream pies at people…as long as I don’t have to clean it up.  It’s so funny.  I always thought these Boys were so much older when I was a kid.  Now they look like babies.  I’m getting so old.  Ha!  A pie in the Mom’s face!  I love it!

4.  What’s Love Got To Do With It  By: Tina Turner

And we’re in black and white.  I never knew what to think of her as a youngster.  I knew her songs.  I thought she was a cool lady but WHAT WAS WITH HER HAIR?  As I’ve gotten older and learned about her I like her more and more.  I have quite a bit of respect for what she’s been through.  Show those nice legs.  She always did have good legs to show off.  Now that I think about it, it was always hair and legs with her.  Hello big hair.  Have you all seen her in the past few years?  She’s still hot stuff out there on the stage!  Ha!  The light reflects through her hair really cool!  Funny that the shot has to fit all of her hair in it.  Did we really have to see that suck face?  Awkward.  And is she naked?  We’re only seeing bare shoulders.  Like the spiral staircase.  Neat car.  Seems like they’re trying to put interesting things in each shot for us to look at.  I applaud the effort.  As a young gal I didn’t understand why she questioned love.  I mean, it was all about that wasn’t it?  I was such a romantic I guess.  Did the car run into that lamp post?  It’s awfully close to it.  Let’s all be serious in each shot when we’re not Tina.  Nice lighting design in this video.  Loving the hair and mustache styles.  Question: How many ’80s videos have checkerboard floors?  That is quite a hat.  Hope she doesn’t hurt someone with it.  I know with my wide brimmed hat it gets in the way of EVERYTHING.  Awesome.  That was so obviously a set at the end!

5. Missing You  By: John Waite

I know.  Who?  But I think once you hear the song you’ll know it.  It was played enough.  I always wondered if he missed the person or not.  As a kid it confused me big time.  Of course now I do believe it was denial.  Any way you look at it, he’s OBSESSED.  Hee hee.  Look at those cars.  MOST BASIC SET EVER.  Black floor and white walls.  He’s sitting by himself and smoking.  Nice hair.  That dangly earring is very distracting.  And another basic set with a bed and a lot of light supposedly coming through the windows.  So she’s unhappy?  It’s just not clear.  Nice sleeveless white shirt.  Did someone hurt his nose?  And another ’80s stalker…There were a lot of them back then.  Kinda creepy with him singing at the camera.  Makes me wanna look away.  And loving the shoulder pads of course.  Nice phone booth.  Slam that phone down!  You know, it’s just not the same anymore with cordless and cell phones.  You just can’t slam them down in the receiver like you used to.  Those were the days.  Nope.  He’s not missin’ her.  He’s just saying it constantly.  Cool blue jacket.  Poor lady is tryin’ to make the eyes at him and he could care less.  I’m insulted.  We’re supposed to not like her because she’s chubby huh?  Uncool for sure.  Is that hanging light supposed to be hypnotizing me?  Easiest shattering of a payphone ever!  Um hello!  She’s knocking on the door!  So the question still remains, is he missing her or not???  Geez.  Get to the point!

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