Not a Happy Nahleen This Morning

I am so not a happy Nahleen this morning. I feel awful. I tried a new blood pressure medication yesterday–ONLY ONE PILL–I will NOT be taking that again.

I feel weak, depleted, achy, stiff, my body temperatures are going hot and cold, and I really feel like I’m getting the life sucked out of me. I’m trudging through muck and I feel like my hands are stuck to a stringy glue-like substance and I’m starting to lose touch with me.

I’m so frustrated and powerless. I had plans for a Physical Therapy appointment and I also had a commitment to fulfill for tonight. Both of these plans will now have to be cancelled for today…because of my body’s reaction to ONE PILL of a line of blood pressure medications that I previously struggled with six years ago. So I got to wake up off and on all night with my body feeling so “weird” and was given a chance to reminisce about those horrible days of trying crappy medications to take care of an issue that had nothing to do with my chronic illnesses. I think what was happening back then was that my multiple sclerosis and lupus (didn’t know I had lupus at the time) were feeling very overwhelmed by any new medication because I was taking a very strong injectable medication for my MS and they were especially unhappy with BP medications so my body went into purge mode. I remember all too well that I was starting to feel lifeless, like the medications were sucking the life out of me.

I have been currently taking a blood pressure medication that has actually worked out but my doctor insisted on raising the dosage by adding another medication and instantly my mind went into RED ALERT. I figured that I’d be okay this time because both my MS and lupus are being treated and I’m no longer on the injectable medication. WRONG. Turns out my body rejects diuretics altogether. No more. All done. I tried it for one day. My body hates it, doesn’t want it and it is all done.

I agree. I hate it, I don’t want it and I’m all done with it too. I will be calling my doctor today to let him know I’m not taking it. It has been a long time since I woke up feeling this physically crappy. Turns out I like my body much more without this new poison. Hey, at least it helps me have perspective that I don’t need to feel this crappy (and I haven’t FOR A LONG TIME NOW I GUESS) and that I want my previous body back–you know, the one from over 24 hours ago that hadn’t taken this stupid medication yet.

So today I will be resting, drinking lots of water, hoping my body can rebuild and repair itself and will do my best to have patience. It’s time to be gentle with me and to remember that I’m not the same person I was mentally or physically six years ago and I can get through this one thing at a time.

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2 thoughts on “Not a Happy Nahleen This Morning

  1. Bonnie Blake

    Hi Nahleen,
    The same thing happened to me when they attempted to put me on a generic form of a medication for my heart and it only took one pill to absolutely knock me on my behind. Nope, wouldn’t take another one, no way, no how….. It was like poison and made me feel absolutely awful! They switched it to the name brand and guess what……………… it worked like a charm and I felt great on it and am still taking it. I firmly believe generic drugs are NOT the same as trade name drugs and people can have various miserable side effects from taking them. And if someone tries to argue with you about it and tell you your not giving your body time to adapt, well there again there dead WRONG!!! Just my opinion mind you…….. So you take care of yourself my dear……. I’ll sure be thinking of you…….
    love and miss you lots,
    Bonnie

  2. Nahleen

    Hi Bonnie,
    Wow! So sorry that happened to you! Yeah, it was a miserable feeling ESPECIALLY to go back to feeling that miserable after not having felt it for six years. So frustrating. So glad I knew why I was feeling crappy and KNEW I was NOT going to take it again no matter what anyone said. Thankfully, my doctor agreed with me. He knows how much I have pushed back about taking any blood pressure medication at all since that horrible experience six years ago and he apologized for giving me something to make me feel worse. As for generics, I’m so glad it worked out for you to take the name brand of that medication. Sometimes it works for me to do that and sometimes it doesn’t matter. It really depends on the drug for me. As the pharmacist technician told me a couple of weeks ago: the Active ingredients are the same in the generic and the name brand, it’s actually the Inactive drugs that could be different in the generic compared to the name brand that different people might have different reactions to so those inactive ingredients might become active. Craziness if you ask me. Anyway, I’m happy to say that I’m recovering–however it’s not nearly as fast as I’d like to but at least it’s in the right direction. It takes no time at all and such a small thing to make things go downhill fast and yet it usually takes much more than that to go back up the hill to recovery.
    Thanks for thinking of me!
    love and miss you lots too,
    Nahleen

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